Sunday, September 30, 2007

In 48 Hours

At last I learned preliminary toolsets I need in project management. After attending the 4 Fridays and 4 Saturdays project management training in UP Technology Management Center, I have obtained the skills, equipping myself to be a good project manager.

When I first attended this training, I did not mingle much with the group. The last day of the training was fun. I began to socialize and our class had great fun especially during the awarding of the diploma. As I mentioned before, the participants of the training came from the different industries. Because of this, I realized that the whole concept of project management encompasses different fields and flexible enough to cater all needs of a project manager even though it has tailored toolsets.

Now that I have the toolsets in my mind, will they be utilized in my work and personal life? Definitely yes! I will definitely use what I’ve learned from the training, not just in my professional endeavors but also in all of my personal projects. When I say personal, this includes my personal goals, by this year I will have this, by this year I must be like this and other stuffs that I have in my mind. In fact, I am already starting to create the log frames of these projects. I believe with this and discipline I can be able to achieve all I want both in my current work and in my personal life.

Anyway, here we are, the first project managers (based on this training) of UP Technology Management Center.












The Whole Class and Our Trainers









Some of the food we ate after the recognition program.










Saturday, September 29, 2007

Rainbow

Love? Are you asking me?



Strani Amori - Renato Russo




I don’t know how to define it. My experience of it is beyond the textbook understanding of anyone. However, I cannot claim that I have better understanding of it than anyone else. All I know love is strange, relative and illogical. It brings someone to a place beyond evolutionary consciousness of mating. It runs deep inside our souls and once we feel it explodes uncontrollably like a big bang. This is the place where all human emotions meet. This is the sky, the abyss, the joy and the pain.

All I know of love is that it is not the rainbow flag you see anywhere with defined lines between colors. It is the spectrum of human life. It sums up the whole us.

For months I have been tormented by it. It’s bittersweet. It’s mirth. It’s deep sadness. But it’s always beautiful no matter what.

I am longing to have someone who can share moments with me like these:













Photos above are paintings of Steve Walker.

On Homeokinetics (Complex System)

While browsing the e-news awhile ago, I encountered this article in INQ (Philippine Daily Inquirer). I was surprised to read this article because write-ups like these are rare nowadays. The writer introduced the concept of Homeokinetics to the laymen without mathematical scribbles.

I have to look for this write-up in Science Journal and see the exposition written by May Lim of UP Diliman (one of my goddesses in UP). This could be interesting because it tackles the Boundary Problem of the complex systems.

Here's the complete article:

Math can prevent violence, says RP physicist
By Queena Lee-Chua
Inquirer
Last updated 02:41am (Mla time) 09/30/2007

MANILA, Philippines -- After the 9/11 attacks in the United States, I visited a Muslim vendor at the Greenhills Shopping Center tiangge. I asked her if she had experienced any repercussions, but she assured me: “We are fine. We are all friends here.”

For many years, Muslim and Christian stall owners have been engaged in friendly competition, as they ply their trade side by side.

At an international conference, I asked a Singapore educator how their country had managed to remain peaceful despite the variety of ethnic groups and religions there.

He replied: “Chinese, Malay, Indian, Muslim, Buddhist, Christian, Hindu—we grow up together. In school, each group can choose to learn its own dialect and its own faith, but everyone is required to mingle with each other, and all students must learn English. We respect one another’s religions; our temples, churches, mosques are near each other.”

Violence is typically the subject of sociology or psychology.

My classes at Ateneo de Manila University study violence in terms of prejudice, groupthink, aggressive instincts.

A few years back, I tried using math to model conflict, specifically how game theory (popularized by Nobel laureate John Nash, portrayed in the movie “A Beautiful Mind”) could shed light on the Spratly Islands dispute and the 1986 Edsa Revolution.

However, there were too many real-life factors that my simple model could not control, so I stopped that line of research.

But math, it turns out, can prevent violence.

Not game theory this time, but a new field called the science of complex systems, whose principles have long been used to study how chemicals, like oil and water, or solid, liquid and gas, behave in the laboratory, and the boundaries between them. Of course, humans are certainly more complex than molecules. But according to a landmark report that appeared in the prestigious journal Science (Sept. 14, 2007), math can help make sense of how different groups interact.

The lead author of the report is a Filipino—May T. Lim of the University of the Philippines’ National Institute of Physics in Diliman, Quezon City.

“I have always been interested in science, as well as music, literature and the arts, although between science and recess, I would have picked recess any day,” Lim says.

What motivated her to pursue physics?

“MacGyver!” she says—certainly prescient, because, as any 1980s TV buff knows, MacGyver does use his scientific skills to combat violence.

The study on math and violence started three years ago, in the latter half of 2004, shortly after Lim went to the New England Complex Systems Institute (Necsi) in Cambridge, Massachusetts.

“My personal involvement started about a year later,” she recalls. “I had been working on using modeling to describe other systems during my doctorate work at UP before that. But my mentor and co-author, Necsi president Yaneer Bar-Yam, started research on violence seven years ago in his book ’Making Things Work.’”

More than 100 million people have died in ethnic violence in the last century. Researchers try to pinpoint probable roots, such as resource competition, territorial squabbles, economic competition.

But Lim and Bar-Yam, together with Richard Metzler, now focus on something that has been neglected so far—the boundaries between different groups.

“We performed statistical analyses comparing the predicted to the reported violence, evaluating the ability of the model to determine both where violence occurs and where violence does not occur,” the scientists report.

Different ethnic, cultural or social groups interact in various ways, depending on how much they are mixed. Social and political factors can trigger violence, but it is more likely to occur with specific types of boundaries.

What boundaries? For one, violence tends to occur when boundaries between different groups are not clear.

“When a group is large enough to impose its cultural standards publicly, but not large enough to prevent them from being broken, violence normally occurs,” Lim says.

Think of islands or peninsulas composed of one cultural group, surrounded by a different one. These areas may most likely become hotspots of violence because the boundaries are not well-defined.

By studying census figures, Lim and her group discovered that unclear boundaries were linked to violence during the Bosnian wars in the former Yugoslavia and recent conflicts in India.

For their study on India, the scientists created a map based on the 2001 census showing the relative population sizes of different groups like Hindus, Muslims, Christians, Sikhs, Buddhists and Jains.

By looking at the boundaries between the groups, they predicted—with an astonishing 90-percent accuracy—locations of extreme violence, especially in Kashmir, Punjab and other areas in Northwest India.

The scientists also predicted accurately that other areas would have lesser violence, such as Jharkhand.

To prevent violence, policymakers need to identify areas at risk and make boundaries clearer. (“Good fences make good neighbors,” said the poet Robert Frost.)

True, groups that are separated by clear boundaries can still experience some antagonism because of other reasons. But boundaries prevent mixing, which minimizes the chance of violence.

The scientists cite Ireland as an example. Because of historical and religious differences, we should expect unstoppable conflict there. But because of clear boundaries that hinder much mixing, violence has generally been prevented in the past years.

Does this mean that we should erect fences among us, the higher the better?

Not exactly, and certainly not all the time, say the scientists: “Caution is warranted to ensure that the goal of preventing violence does not become a justification for it. Even a peaceful process of separation is likely to be objectionable.”

They urge us to think about negative effects of separation, such as displacement of populations. But there is another way.

A friend told me once that he almost came to blows with a neighbor over the task of clearing a giant tree felled by a typhoon:

“The tree lay practically between our gardens. After much argument, we finally came to our senses and cooperated. He cleared the tree, and I paid him for it.”

This brings us to the second result of Lim’s study—one I find more congenial than erecting high fences. Violence can be prevented by thoroughly mixing different groups so that islands and peninsulas do not even form.

The study confirms what my Singaporean colleague told me. In Singapore, more than 80 percent of the population live in public housing, where rules specify the percentage of ethnic groups occupying housing blocks.

National laws force cultural mixing, and various peoples literally have no choice but to live and grow up side by side. There are social tensions at times, but violence is generally absent.

Why is this so? In places where people are highly mixed, no group becomes big enough to develop a strong identity, or to impose its culture on others.

Groups “are neither imposed upon nor impose upon other groups, and are not perceived as a threat to the cultural values or social and political self-determination of others,” the scientists say.

Lim and her group believe that their work can be applied to deal with violence in Iraq and Africa. The model has yet to be applied to the Philippines.

“That would be an interesting project,” Lim muses.

She adds: “The key is to understand how the boundary structure of the population and the geography interact. When violence is sporadic, like what happens in our country, the conditions are likely to be just barely meeting those that promote violence.

“Ethnic violence is a very serious problem. But now we have the ability to help prevent it using a scientific approach.”

Lim’s research has already proven my “suki” right. As long as different groups mix closely together, as they do in the Greenhills tiangge, there is hope for us.

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(The author is a professor of mathematics and psychology at the Ateneo de Manila University. She may be reached at blessbook@yahoo.com.)


Monday, September 24, 2007

Bad Day

This is one thing that I don’t like about myself. I can’t get over with something I fucked up. I will always think of it and stressed myself on it until someone will tell me that things will be ok.

Few hours ago, I had a chat with one of our clients and he inquired me if we finished the caching of an online system over the weekend. I told him that we were not yet done. We were finishing things in an hour or so. Then, he suddenly told me that that was a big mistake because Hooman, one of the clients, of this account promised them to finish everything by Sunday. And we were not able to finish it because we did not treat this side task as an urgent matter. Hooman told me to finish things by Sunday 6 pm, but we did not able to do it. The only mistake I did was that I did not inform Hooman last Sunday that we weren’t able to finish it and we continued working on it today.

To my desperation to finish it, I instructed 4 people to finish the task with the estimated one hour to accomplish everything. Unknown to me, the clients were simultaneously using the program for sale presentation to their clients and what we were doing with the system terribly affected the system and their presentation. Everything was impossibly slow, according to one of the client who was doing the presentation.

I did a terrible and lousy decision today and I feel bad about it. I should not have told them to continue the task. I should not have told them that we were not yet done. But at least I had been honest to them. My intention was good but it happened in the wrong time.

I can’t simply let go of this fucked-up decision. It is tormenting me until now.

How I wish I can bring back time.

From Canada to Somewhere


It’s raining hard outside. My body is again in stasis mode, making hard for my system to seize the day. So I slept whole day and did not attend my classes this morning. When I woke up few hours ago my stomach was grumbling. So, I prepared my breakfast and good mug of coffee, Nescafe Vanilla Flavor. Right now, I have a second mug of coffee here in front of me, enjoying a sip while writing this, as well as the sound of the rain outside.

I scoured my mind for today’s topic but I couldn’t find an appropriate starting point of my thoughts. I was supposed to write my reflections on a certain intellectual issue but there was a missing connection in my brain that I could not explicitly express my analyses. As the minute electric current traveled through the wires of my brain, it passed through a certain node that reminded me of some remote philosophical exposition of myself. Everything started to tick from that point and now here I am recalling that distant past of my lightcone.

Two weeks ago, while I was having my “yosi” break from the lecture of the training I was attending (Project Management Training, UP Technology Management Center), I overheard two MS management students discussing about leaving the country and working abroad with lucrative salary offering. They were talking about the working atmosphere in Guam, Saipan, Taiwan, Japan, New Zealand and US. Upon hearing their conversation, I also asked myself if I have plans to leave the country. Several weeks before this I was discussing with Pow (my good friend) of my indefinite plan to go to Canada. I couldn’t help myself, but I was terribly bothered by this thought. Am I really planning to do this? Did I ever plan this? Yes, when I was a child. I was planning to live in New York, having my own pad there, working hard and living life in very cosmopolitan way. But I never ever did plan in my life to live somewhere, to work hard, to earn so much money, to become very rich and when I go home to become famous in my town. So, what I really want in my life?

For the interim, I shelved that thought and went back to the training room. That evening, while preparing myself to sleep, my mind did not stop bothering me about that topic. I took a stick cigarette, prepared a good mug of coffee and sat on my bed, contemplating and reflecting solemnly on this matter. I wasn’t able to provide myself a good and satisfactory answer until last night.

It was Mr. Linderman (Heroes character), who supplied the right answer that provided peace to my heart. He said: “There are two kinds of people here on earth. Some will live life of happiness, while some will live life of meaning. For those who will live life of happiness, they value the present so much, and live life in the present. While for those who live life of meaning, they hold on to the past and they are very obsessed with the future.” Upon hearing this, the conversation I overheard few weeks ago surfaced again and my mind tried to find a connection between them. This connection is the answer to what I am really trying to have in my life. It is living life of meaning.



How living life of meaning is connected with going abroad? For some it might be irrelevant, or incongruous. But for me, it is deeply coded in my goal of living life of meaning. My mind collects the past and projects things in the future. I gather pieces of history in the backdrop of time and it is in the understanding of my life against the movement of time where I am trying to seek meaning. My goal transcends any boundary. It lies in the borderless space and does not recognize any territorial boundaries, either local or global. I don’t need to go anywhere, because, somehow, deep inside of me, something is telling me that if I just focus my effort, my attention and my extra time in accomplishing my goal, it will bring me anywhere I want, including any uncharted space. The only way for me to reach this goal is to forget the concept of present time, living life not in seeking daily happiness but seeking for my future happiness. My concerted effort must be directed in forward point and start working on the foundations of my future goal (I have started to work on this but it was halted because I took a short detour).

It is because of future why I exist.



Ancient27

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Friday, September 21, 2007

To The Wedding

Inside the cab, on our way to Antipolo City to attend a friend’s wedding, we, Jayr, Pow and I, had an intense debate on the plight of the Filipino people and the incapacity, as blindly observed by most people, of the government to supply the needs of its people. My thoughts that time stood on the ground where things could be viewed macroscopically, treating society, people and government, its co-dependent components, as one intricate interconnected system. One cannot exist without the other. People need to exist to have government and governance is important to have a stable society, to maintain a cohesive collection of interacting human beings. Government is a veritable result, unavoidable one, of social species living in assembly in bounded area. People and government, government and people, are the two major components of the society for us unconventionally, in functional and modern definition, to call it as such.

I can’t really remember how we started the conversation, but the thoughts on this matter we were throwing to each other are still vivid in my mind. Jayr blamed the government on the current state of the Filipino. In his opinion, as he asserted, the government did not meet its responsibilities to the Filipino people. I disagreed. For me, we cannot blame everything to the government. For a society, to advance its state, each component should comply and meet its role in concerted effort for all political and economic platforms to work smoothly. The economic platforms of the government this administration period are robust enough to alleviate the economic state of the Filipino. However, patience is needed because these platforms take time to achieve their converging goal. Not just patience, every member of the Filipino should do they share, because any massive economic reform cannot be pushed forward if there is no concerted effort of the collective to move it forward. Everything boils down to intricate and interdependent relationship of the people and their government.

With the understanding of this intricate relationship, we can now synthesize the clear picture of the events in Filipino society. For me, as I can see it, the government is indeed fairly doing its parts, as you can see in all massive economic restructuring. I believe, the government, and specifically the President, has a holistic and committed agenda to uplift the economic state of this nation. Now, after we have seen the effort of the government, let’s focus our attention to the other component of the society, the people. Are they doing their share? We cannot say that the whole Filipino populace is not doing its share, certain classes only. I observed that Class C and D Filipino masses are not doing their share. Their doubts and clamors hinder the whole nation to move forward. How I wish their trust and understanding of the Philippine governance should grow up. They are the ones who create a vicious cycle of the economic cancer of the Philippine society. Their old system of beliefs and skeptical view of the economic agenda of any President, who somehow they elected, feed the soul of the opportunist, monstrous, voracious, and greedy politicians, as heightened by the selfish and irresponsible media. These are the members of the society, most specifically the Filipino, who have done nothing at all but ruin all the good intentions of the government. They have exaggerated the concept of democracy, and those who have understood the clear and technical workings of it have also exploited this frailty of lower Filipino classes.

The other thing I iterated during our debate is the weakness of some of the lower classes of Filipinos, the attitude of misplaced contentment and love of quick money. Because of these I claimed that they are not doing their share. They are contented to wake up by noon and sit around doing nothing at all waiting for the government to provide them their day to day needs. Sometimes, I believe they have this concept of government as provider of their actual real needs, like any politician giving them rice, canned goods, etc. daily. They are expecting that someone will work for them to feed them. The government exists not to provide us tangible things in the form of packaged goods handed out to us daily. It exists to provide us ways and means to feed ourselves. These classes of Filipino people did not absorb the teaching of feeding someone with fish and teaching someone to fish. Another frustrating attitude of these classes is the love of quick-money. Most believe that they can get money easily, by just sitting around the corner and waiting for someone to give them money. One case, that I had learned few years ago, that proved my thoughts on the Filipino misplaced contentment and laziness, was the mass housing project of the government such as BLISS, etc. I found out that some beneficiaries of the housing sold their units and went back to the squatter areas and beg the government again to provide them housing units. Imagine this, they were contended to live in squatter area in exchange of the cash that they can get from selling their units as provided by the government. This is indeed misplaced contentment.

Jayr scolded me because of this. He told me that I was judgmental and prejudicial. He asked me if I ever tried to live with them and had fully understood the plight of the lower class Filipinos. Yes, I tried to be with them for years and I realized that they were the one who created that mess in their lives and not the government. Seeing them in cyclical miserable lifestyle with contentment and seeing their reluctance to do something with it further proved my beliefs that the Filipino masses are just looking for scapegoats for all the mistakes that they have done in their lives. It is not the responsibility of the government to wake them up in the morning and tell them eat your breakfast and go to work. I stressed out to Jayr that it was sympathy that made him to be on their side and not because of logical understanding of the workings of collective system. He was touched because he saw their miserable situation and he forgot to look at things in historical and macroscopic view. He should have asked himself, are they doing something to get out from this miserable life? For me, I would answer no. They are just keeping their lives in this cycle of poverty that they have created.

To truly move the country to certain level of development, or to remove poverty from society, the lower classes of the Filipino should start changing their views and should start working their asses to provide their family with comfortable life and to provide their children with fair level of education so that they get out from the cycle of impoverished lifestyle. They need to stop blaming the President for their plight. They should have asked their selves, is it really the government that brings misery to our lives or is it ourselves?

The problem with the Filipino lower masses does not come from the set-up and execution of our governance. They put themselves in that level. It is their individual effort to alleviate the status of their life that will end all of their woes. Development and good society won’t come from the government but will come from the individual effort geared towards concerted agenda of eliminating poverty. Everyone must do their share.

We ended our discussion to another topic that I will be discussing soon. It has something to do from the leap of the Philippine culture from Agricultural to Industrial, missing one important revolution that I believe we need to undergo. For now, I have to end my thoughts here.

Anyway, when we arrived at Gen’s house we dressed up immediately because she was already furious. We were quite late for her wedding.

Here are some photos:


The Newlyweds and the Secondary Sponsors


anton, jb (jabo), maida, pow and me

Pow, JayR and Me

Me and JC (Iris' son)

Nelson and Me

A dance with Iris' Mom



Wednesday, September 19, 2007

15 Slides

Since two weeks ago, I have been so busy with things in school, work and personal learning endeavors. Twenty four hours of a day are not enough to finish all the billion things my mind wants to do. An additional one hour of the “Labyrinth” time can be a great help and I wish, as much as nature can give, I can have this. Unfortunately the Earth rotates for approximately 24 hours only and man is used to measure the interval of tasks on this basis, leaving us with no choice but to deal with all of our ideas within this bound. Oh! How I wish Chronos will provide me the luxury of time.

If you are going to let me describe the things I did for almost three weeks, the two PowerPoint presentations I created for the company can perfectly show you the whole picture of my efforts. The 15 slides of each presentation contain my thoughts and my plans because while doing them the design somehow represents the scattered ideas juggled within my brain.

These two presentations were used by two managers for their activities. One was for the client presentation showing how we celebrate “Success” in the company and the other was for recruitment purposes of the HR department, which they showcased it during the job fair. Both were created in just a couple of hours. I was so excited that I was able to furnish them in very tight deadline to the point that the finishing touches of one of them were done while we were in transit from Quezon City to Makati. To my recollection, it was indeed fun to tinker on the laptop keys in the backseat while the driver was treading the car along the highway. I did not mind the traffic jam and the rain that time. I was just enjoying the task of animating the slide show.


Here are the snapshots of the slides of the presentations.


Show 2: Presented to the soon-to-be employees of the company.




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The presentations I did were not that grand but somehow I found a little happiness in what I did.