Hiatus

I have not written anything for more than a month. It was because I have been busy resolving some personal issues and taking care of my personal investments. Within this hiatus I seeded so much learning points, dots of advices and internalizations that I believe created exponential changes in me. I learned to control myself. I learned to explore the other sexual part of me. I became wiser when my sexual urges call. I learned that money is not forever. I experienced to deal with MMDA crocodiles. I learned to be in transit. I learned to love Makati, to absorb its beauty during rush hours. I learned to humble myself, to take time and plans in their own phases. I learned to acknowledge defeat, to back off and stop being aggressive. I learned to be flexible. I learned to let go. I was able to forge good friendships. I learned how to be forgiving. I learned so many things that I have not learned in 20 years of my existence. I learned to love, to be patient, to decipher the codes of true love. Now, I know what Edmund White really meant by being transient.

I am getting my own unit. I am distinguishing love from lust. I am beginning to understand the essence of existence, the meaning of why things have to be this way and that way, acknowledging limits and backing-off when things are not ought to happen. Life happens when the entropy of your personal life is in equilibrium of your inner peace.

Anyway, right now I have nothing much except for some update on my personal endeavors:

1. Love. Beginning to accept the fact that I am still young and somewhere someday I will be meeting someone who I truly deserve.
2. Live. I am getting my own unit and I have to start financial management of my income. I believe I have to start investing not just in some fixed assets but also in business and savings. Hmmm… how about investing in stock market?
3. Learn. My old routines, home and work, malls and restos, etc.. have been broken because I have to stay now in my aunt’s house here in Makati, in preparation of my transfer to my new unit.
4. Liberty. Now my mind is free and now I definitely know what I want in my life. I want to succeed in my own field, further my career in research and IT.
5. Light-hearted. It is good to know for years of existing here on earth, after-all I have not wasted my interaction with so many people. Now I realized that I had forged a lot of bonds with other people, having them as my friends and some a life-long ones.
6. Life. Now I want to live more and live life to the fullest.

I guess this is enough for now.

Like Mars being conquered by humanity, my life is now being conquered by reasons to give more and exist more. Like Phoenix, I am being reborn.