Chemical Romance

Ascorbic Acid

Paracetamol

It was really exhausting and depressing to have a week of romance with different chemicals. Yes. For a week my body succumbed to the attack of the throng of flu virus. Good thing, I had the available chemicals to help my system to combat them.

Dextromethorphan

It started two Sundays ago. That time I could already feel the entry of the viruses in my system. My throat was sore and I began to have colds. Come Monday, I was weakened, ending my day on my bed having fever. Then the whole Tuesday, I slept the whole day and in the evening, I thought I was in delirium. My fever was high and my body was limp. While lying there on my bed, I thought I was dreaming of my inner self transforming into some geometrical shapes, triangular, prism, then quadrilateral, and some unique form as in trying to configure a defense system for my body to easily recover from this sickness. I was indeed in delirium. Maybe my mind is mirroring the subconscious activities of my body in combating the flu virus. It’s a way of telling me, we are producing more and more T-cells to help you against the flu virus.

I was fortunate to have meds while resting. I already bought several gallons of water and several capsules of Tuseran forte. Who couldn’t b exhausted by waging a war against the flu virus? Take note this is a war happening deep within you, deep within your cellular self. Maybe I could not have won this war without the help of Dextromethorphan Hydrobromide, Phenylpropanolamine, Paracetamol, Ascorbic Acid, and Chlorpheniramine Maleate. Aside from these basic chemicals I doubled my intake of Ascorbic Acid and Vitamins and Minerals. Seriously, I was desperate in getting rid of the sore throat and colds.

I told a friend that if there is one medicine that could eliminate all of these in one day, I will not hesitate to buy that medicine. It’s difficult to work, to think, to move when you are feeling something, when your body is busy in eliminating and purging the flu virus out of your system.

By Tuesday morning, I started to drink Amoxil, an antibiotic.

Now I am not sure what I am feeling. Just this afternoon when I woke up I felt like I was going to vomit. Until now, I wanna puke but for some unknown reason I cannot puke. Something is terribly wrong with my system nowadays.

First, I am vulnerable to ordinary colds or even ordinary cough. Second, I could feel changes in my mood, irritable, indifferent and melancholic. Third, my eating habit is erratic. I am not satisfied with what I am eating or sometimes I am not in the mood to eat. Not sure what is happening to my system. Maybe it’s just a delayed reaction of my body to a week’s exhaustive cellular war. Or maybe it’s just a convalescence stage after a week of illness. Maybe it is because of the weather. Not sure. I don’t know. But I don’t like the feeling anymore.

Whatever it is, I am hoping that I will go back to a happy, free of worry state soon.
Actually, I have several theories why I am feeling this way:

1. Weather. May it is because of the weather. It’s erratic and my system doesn’t like erratic weather. My body cannot adapt easily to changing temperature. In the afternoon, it’s humid and hot then suddenly comes the early evening it rains hard and cold. This is a killer. You will definitely get sick if you don’t have any resistance.

2. Living alone. I just realized that I started to live alone now. I mean alone in my own condo unit. I got no one to talk to anymore. For years I am used to live in a house where I can chit chat with all housemates in the afternoon or before I go to work. Now that I am living alone, I have to sleep alone, wake up alone, eat alone, smoke alone, watch DVD’s alone, and do everything alone. Maybe my body is adjusting to this solitary stage of my life.

3. Stress. Maybe it is also due to stress. Lately, I have been so workaholic. My pimples on my face can definitely tell how many hours of sleep I miss everyday. So many things to think. Bills to pay. Projects to finish. Things to do. Future to worry. Sometimes I feel like I want to surrender. But that’s one thing I can’t do.

4. Failing health. Maybe I should stop smoking or begin to tone down my cigarettes. I can feel that my lungs are weak already. I can no longer withstand the hustle-bustle of life without wheezing.

5. Withdrawal Syndrome. Maybe I am experiencing some sort of sex-withdrawal syndrome. I don’t have any sex life for a month already! Boredom is eating me and I need a little pleasure to bring back my sanity.

I am not sure which of these theories causes my health problem. To be sure, I guess I have to consult a doctor as soon as possible this week. I have to rebuild a healthy body. Maybe it is time for me to exercise and assert a more positive outlook in my life.

Hopefully, this week I can find something to strengthen both my physical and spiritual body. I feel like I am disintegrating.